Missing Myself

Please make me feel better, I'm miserable and sad. I'm blogging about it because I don't know who to tell, who can fix it and help me. Deep down I know I can only help myself to feel better by making a very hard decision. I'm scared and I hate who I've become. I'm not myself and I haven't been for a long time. I miss being happy, I miss the good old Ayla. I miss love, hope and joy. I'm doubting myself and everything I know, I don't believe in myself or anything. I don't know who I am, I miss my life.