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My Life as Liz

Oh and yesterday while doing nothing I watched My Life as Liz. I wouldn't normally blog about this because I never watch MTV but I know Brittany is going to read this. I only watched one episode but it was good I guess. It might have been better if I knew what was going on, as a rating I give it 4 panda bears out of a possible 5.

Yada, Yada, Yada

Today I have grad pictures and hair cut and color! I'm kinda nervous for the both of them, I mean grad pictures are pretty important because when you have kids you show them how ridiculous you looked and what not. And for the hair cut/color I'm nervous too because getting is always kinda nerve racking. I want it too look good, you don't want the hair dresser to "fuck it up" I've only had my hair colored at a salon once before too. I normally box dye it when I want a change because I've only done a drastic change once or twice. Normally they're little un-noticeable changes that are just for me. I'm not whether to wash my hair before I go because I feel bad when they have to cut my gross hair but then again last time I went the hairdresser washed it anyway. Well that's whats happening to me today, maybe if I feel like it I'll post a picture with my new hair. But I wouldn't count on it happening tonight, I'm a busy girl.

Things that happen

Just realized that my car hasn't left the driveway since approximately 2:15pm on Thursday. I'm almost ashamed that I haven't driven anywhere but in my defence I've been sick and only got better yesterday. On the plus side think of all the gas I saved by being a loser and not going out.

Due Date

Nick and I rented Due Date yesterday by chance. We went to Rogers video and they were all gone since it was a saturday but we walked by just as an employee was putting it back and we grabbed it. Anyway it was a pretty good movie. It`s a lot like Dinner for Smucks but only in sense that everything possible went wrong. Lots of laughs

Fuck

Fuck My Life.

For the next two weeks

For the next two weeks I need to keep a close eye on what I'm buying seeing as how I didnt make any money between this pay cheque and last pay cheques, in fact I lost $200. This is becoming a real pain in my ass. I guess no fun for the next two weeks. *sigh* maybe I'll have enought money soon enough to treat myself to some shopping. A girl can dream...

Stats

These are the stats from people who have viewed my blog since I've had it until today.
I think it's really neat when people other than Canada view my blog.

The Blind Side

I love The Blind Side, it has the ability to make me cry and laugh all at the same time. I honestly think that this is Sandra Bullock best acting performance and the best movie she's ever been in.The fact that it's based on a true story makes it even better.

English Language Arts

I found out yesterday that I have ONE month to read 1984 by George Orwell. I've had since August to read it but It's such a hard book to get into and I have absolutely no desire to read it. This wouldn't be such a problem if I wasn't in an AP class and I had to find another novel on the AP list to do a novel study for. The only books that I really want to do are To Kill A Mocking Bird and The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, but those books we read in grade eleven and aren't on the AP list. I have to chose from Lord of the Flies, Eyes are Watching God, Life of Pi, Frankenstein, Brave New World, and Wuthering Heights. I haven't found anything I like yet. Theres still time I guess I have until the end of April to figure it out.

Online Diary

Do you ever get in one of those moods where you just want to rant or call someone out on all their bullshit? I'm going through one of those right now, so this post will serve as my online diary. What I want more than anything is to tell my grandma how "un-grandmaful" she really is and how she has never truly been there for me, how she favorites her other step-grandchild more, and that she knows absolutely nothing about who I am and what I want aside from what my dad tells her. But how does one go criticizing their grandmother? Or how do you even begin telling a friend how horrible they have been to you over the last 6 months and that an apology over text is NOT suffice. Or how to tell an ex-stalker how he made me feel for a year and what a douchebag he is for moving on to do the same to my best friend. As aweful as I may seem as a person these are the kind of things I think about. Maybe it's time for me to stand up and let others know how they have hurt me. Maybe I'm blowing steam out of my ears and needed to write (type) down my general thoughts. Regardless of how I'm feeling these are the things that bother me and will have be addressed sooner or later, it's really up to me if I want to open these doors. Thanks for listening (reading); this really helped me get this off my chest.

Nobody Kid

In my house we have a nobody kid. When something bad happens or when something is really messy and nobody fesses up to it, that is when it's declared that the nobody kid did it. This morning I found some hairs and a pair of scissors sitting on the bathroom countertop and when asked who it was, everyone said it wasn't them. For once I'd like someone to confess and actually clean up their mess instead of being disgusting. (very repetive in my house; refer back to shit post)

Sickness

Over the past two days I managed to get sick. Not the flu or anything, its most likely a cold. My nose is running and I feel like I have to sneeze all the time and my nose is getting raw from blowing it so often. Normally I wouldn't be too upset about this but seeing as I have grad photos on the 28th I'm in a bit of a hurry to get better. So I'm gonna get drunk on NyQuil and hope for the best. If any of you readers have any helpful get better quick remedies it would be greatly appreciated.
Love Aylagator

Is it too much to ask

Is it too much to ask for you to flush the toilet and to change the paper when there is none. Instead of letting your giant log cook over night or leaving one measly little piece of toilet paper to wipe my ass with. Because it really is an annoyance to see that and then have to leave the bathroom while doing your business to grab some more toilet paper. Sincerely everyone who has the same problem in their house.

yes, I did just blog about shit incase you missed it.

2 years!

Today is my two year anniversary with my boyfriend! Although he doesn't lurk my blog I'll say this anyway. "I love you and happy two years" We're going out for dinner tonight and then maybe to a friends house for a party.

OMG SHOES!

I used to watch this video all the time with Brittany and laugh my ass off. I sometimes miss 15 year old aylagator..

well now that I've actually watched it, I can't remember why it was so funny...

Work Time

I got already for work today mostly because I bought this jacket type thing two months ago and I still haven't wore it. Work is the only place where I can wear without judgement. I'm trying to be more girly and wear less sweats, right now I'm on day 8 of no sweats at school. I feel like I'm accomplishing something.

Seinfeld

I want to take a picture like this with my friends.

V-Day Night

If any of you avid readers were curious of what I did last night for V-Day with my bf. We ended up ordering pizza and watching paranormal activity 2. Nothing special but sure was great to spend time with eachother.

Myspace

I went on myspace for the first time today in three years. I was such a different person in grade nine and very angry. I'm gonna put some blog posts from way back then on here. Enjoy the 14 year old aylagator!

Waiting - Jan 3 2009
I know that with my luck, you and me won’t happen.Am I forever doomed to never get what I want?
Every boy, every time I’ve pushed them away some how.
Is it because I don’t want a relationship, scared of the commitment?.
Or scared of what it might do to me?
To have to rely on someone else besides myself, is hard too accept.
I want someone to love me, I need someone too.
I’m tired of being single, tired of being a sex object.
I want someone to have feelings for me.
I’m tired of everything, being useless and so ordinary.
When will my time come when I can be happy?
I’m tired of being over looked, I want attention.
I want change.
I want you to notice.
Nothing has ever worked out for me.
I always fuck things up.
Isn’t there something out there that I can’t?
For just once isn’t there a way.
That SOMETHING in my life can go right?
I want simplicity in a world no where close to it.

I want to know- Oct 10 2008

I want to let all the anger and fury out, i want to feel something other than anger.
I want to feel honest to god happy for once. Not the kind that makes you feel good for a week because something good happened. But the kind that strikes you longer than momentarily the kind that makes you smile when you go to sleep and smile when you wake up. And you get to feel that happiness all the time, that's what i want. I haven't got a clue what makes me so anger. But I know three things. I'm anger at myself, I'm angry at my friends, and I'm angry for what i do have and for what i don't. I'm angry for what i have become. I'm angry for the choices my friends make. I want to know what causes me to feel this way. I want to know what's wrong with me, I want to know how i can fix it. I feel like it's me against the world. I want to control my anger and fury. I want to let it out. I want to be honest to god happy.


Change- Sept 29 2008Change has never been something I easily grasped or accepted. change is the one thing I fear the most and change is the one thing I have to face more than any other fear I have. Change is all around me, I'm unable to escape what surrounds me. I'll have to take a deep hard long inside myself and look at what I've become. Along the way I lost myself. I lost what was most important to me. I'm looking for something insignificant to change me, shape me, mold me and teach me to be a better person who can love herself and others and accept her faults along with others. I've started to become all the people that I admire the most, there's nothing wrong with that, it's just I've lost myself and forgot who I am. I have to learn that I can't change what my peers do, but only what I do. I want to stop remembering the past and all the bad that has happened, I want to only let the good shine through. I want to overcome my fear of change, because change is happening all around us. I've changed and so have my morals and beliefs. I won't avoid change anymore, because change will become something that I will grasp and accept with ease


My dog is challenged- May 2 2008

Uhh.. I have tayy over as part of our regualr routine starting as of today; that she comes over every friday after school.

Anyway, my mom is about to drive us to Walmart to go and get some supplies for the party.
And my dog jumps in the car, i'm chill and he sits on my lap like usually
 UNTIL HE STARTS TAKING A WIZ 

 ON MY LAP

I stand up run into the house screaming " he pissed all over me!" Tayy meanwhile is the backseat pissing herself laughing. & I was judged like no other, I'm sure Leaving the question: is my dog challenged, and thought i was the grass?

Well nothing has changed with my dog within the last 3 years, he still eats shit and is generally an annoying thing. But looking back on these blog posts I am definitely happier now then I was back then. I have learnt to grasp change I still don't like it but I accept it with ease. The fury and anger is gone and I've found the one guy who makes me feel special like being me is good enough. I am finally honest to god happy.

Domino's Pizza

How can anybody not love Domino's Pizza? Especially when they have such great deals, I've never seen deals like these!!

I love flowers

Even though I said before on my Valentines Day post that my boyfriend and I weren't really doing anything special for Valentines Day he bought me flowers anyway. I love him

Valentines Day

Today is Valentines day, for lots of people this is just another day. Really all Valentines Day is, is  another commercialised holiday which is true I don't deny it. It's a day to look down on the people without a significant other and to glorify the people who do. In my opinion I see Valentines Day as another day, yes there is more pressure to be extra special to your girl but my boyfriend and I haven't celebrated it in the time we've been dating. We say happy Valentines Day and book it off to spend time together but we don't go out for dinner or buy each other present. Instead we combine V-day with our anniversary on the 19th and make that day extra special. All I'm trying to say is that it's just another day and if you celebrate it or not it really doesn't matter. With that being said Happy Valentines Day or Happy Single Awareness Day!
- Love Aylagator :)

$5 dollar footlong

I love this commercial, I apologize for the bad quality but it's the only one I could find that had the Canadian version. This week alone I had two five dollar foot longs, they're delicious.

Shopping fail

I went shopping today with Alynn, Amanda, Ashley, and Allison. No I didn't buy anything, I tried on lots of dresses and I found a really nice green sweater dress from Smart Set. It fit perfectly and everything but it was $55 dollars not including the tank top that I would have to buy to wear underneath. Normally the cost wouldn't be a probably but I'm low on cash lately and need to be able to pay bills. I also found the two seasons of Seinfeld I don't have but they were both $42 while the seasons I already have were $18. I wonder why they were so expensive. Such an uneventful shopping trip all I spent money on was a poutine from New York Fries and I couldn't even eat the whole thing because I think they've made their regular size bigger. Oh well, life goes on.

I play solitaire

I've been playing a lot of solitaire on my computer because out of the 323 games I've played I've one 100. That says that I win about 3 out of 10 games. Maybe I'm wrong but "all I do is win" lyrics would be appropriate here

Seinfeld Seasons

I finished watching Seinfeld Season 4 yesterday, so I bought season 6! I'll never run out of Seinfeld episodes to watch. I'm going shopping this afternoon and if I see season 3 or season 5 I'll have to buy it because right now I currently have Season 1&2, 4, 6. I think that Seinfeld is the greatest show there ever has been and I would be the happiest person in the world if I could meet Jerry Seinfeld.

Holy Pants

This morning when I woke up I found out that there is a hole in my favorite pajama pants. They aren't even technically mine, my boyfriend gave them to me when we first started dating about 2 years ago. I'm so sad and disappointed that my favorite pajama pants I've ever had are going to eventually not have an ass.

Google

I was googling myself today and I realized it knows everything about me. The first two links are for my twitter account and have some of my tweets on there too. As well as facebook, myspace and youtube. There's even pictures of me on google images! I feel as if google knows everything about me and is watching my every move and as much as that creeps me out that anyone can type in my name and find anything about me I'm not gonna let that stop me from living my life and tweeting like crazy!
follow me on twitter: aylagator

Dog for sale.

Anyone looking for that adorable dog I occasionally post about? Well I'm really not selling him but I'd like to 65% of the time. Today when I came home from work I got a bagel from Tim Hortons and threw it on my night stand and then went to the bathroom. While doing my business my dumb dog ate my WHOLE bagel. Yes the entire thing! That was literally my supper for the night and now I'm stuck eating grapes and toast...I know it's pretty much the same but it really isn't as satisfying. It was my favorite kind too; Cinnamon raisin with strawberry cream cheese :( As much as I'd miss my dog if he was gone, some days I wish he was.

that might have been what it could have looked like if I ate it.

Impressed

I'm always really excited when I see people from other countries lurking my blog. This week there was 11 from Denmark! Keep it coming :)

Scholarships

I absolutely hate looking for scholarships, it's so disappointing. Everything is so specific, you have to be studying a certain major or be in a certain faculty, be aboriginal, a 90% average, in financial need and so on. Luckily I've found 13 that are applicable to me but even then the chances of getting any are slim to none. I guess I'm just hoping that nobody else apply's and I get picked (fingers crossed). Any how I got my physics teacher to be one of my letters of reference and the first scholarship is due February 19th! That's a week away, I better get started. Oh and I applied to University of Regina today into Science to study biology. Anyway wish me luck!

You're a firework

I've had "Fireworks" stuck in my head all day, I was singing to my dog thats how bad it was. Just thought I'd let whoever reads this know not that anyone cares but I needed to blog!
"Do you ever feel like a plastic bag drifting through the wind wanting to start again"
"Cause baby you're a firework Come on show them what you're worth"

I'm super excited to see her in July!!

Mean Girls Joke

From @Lord_Voldemort7 tweets

Most Romantic Regina Resteraunts

I can't help but laugh when I see that Taco Del Mar is in the ten top romantic resteraunts to go to in Regina. I agree that Taco Del Mar provides delicious mexican food but it's a fast food resteraunt and I know I'd be disappointed if my man took me there for Valentines Day.

This month: Day 30

This is the last post of the 30 day blog challenge that I was participating in.
Highs and Lows of the Month. (30 days):

Highs: Getting front row Katy Perry tickets, getting my grad ring/dress, passing C30 with a 68, figuring out what to do after high school, hanging out with friends, great weather, pajama day, new semester, new years eve party, watching Seinfeld and prestiging on black ops for the very first time ever.
Lows: Nick moving across town, bitches not respecting other people's realtionships, going through a tank of gas a week, crappy weather, the new "luriel" at work, new years eve party, final exams and new zodiac signs

Goals: Day 29

Upcoming goals for the next 30 days.

• buy another season of Seinfeld
• get a haircut
• save money
• join a gym
• apply for scholarships
• find something to wear for grad pictures
• download new maps for Black Ops
• keep up in Chemistry
• apply to U of R
• get a second job
• recycle old cell phones
• keep my room clean (as if that'll happen)
• stop eating McDonalds (as much)
• have fun

100th post

This is my 100th post! I'm not sure if this is milestone I should celebrate or not but who cares!

What I miss: Day 28

I miss:

• sleepovers
• pulling all nighters
• buying cds
• playing halo with Brittany
• not worrying about school
• having short hair
• spending time with my grandparents
• not having bills to pay
• camping in the back yard
• not caring what other people think of me
• summer
• when gas wasn't over $1/L
• going to the beach

I really miss when life was simple and our biggest worries was whose house are we sleeping over at.

Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year!
Let the year of the rabbit begin

A problem I've had: Day 27

Everybody has had a problem in their life at one point at time. Right now I'm dealing with the problem of my boyfriend moving from the north end with me to the south end with his dad because of a divorce. Problems are unavoidable, they are just a part of life.

Water heater

I ran into a water heater while I was drunk trying to get my mix out of the freezer.

Happy Groundhog Day

Spring is coming early this year, well according to the groundhog that didn't see his shadow. So I guess we only have 6 more weeks of winter! To think that on March 9th we could possibly have nice spring weather. It's a shot in the dark but its better than nothing besides its nice to think you only 6 more weeks of -46C weather

What attracts me: Day 26

I haven't really thought about this too much since I've been in a serious relationship for two years but I guess I'm attracted to a man that can make me laugh and has similar interests to me. He's has to have some basic knowledge of what to wear, has to be able to make me feel special, know when to be serious and when to be goofy. I guess ultimately he has know himself and what his ethics are before I could open my heart to him and feel comfortable.

Upcoming photos

Grad pictures are being taken at the end of February /beginning of March, and I know it's only day 2 out of 28 but what am I going to wear? I have no idea what I'm going to do! Sometimes kids that are really involved in the school bring things to take pictures with like a basketball player would bring a basketball. What would I bring I'm not involved in anything in school expect for best buddies and even then my best buddy has been in Hawaii with her parents for the past three months and shes mean to me. I really like video games and Seinfeld and psychology but I'm not about to bring my xbox controller to school for pictures. I don't really think Jerry Seinfeld himself would want to come all the way out to Regina, Saskatchewan to take a picture for grad with me.. (even though that would be a dream come true). I'll probably just bring my dog to pictures if I can even though he'll be too excited because of all the people.

Please don't make me go

I'm really dreading going to school tomorrow since we've been off since Friday even though it seems like a lot longer since final exams started on January 21st. So I guess in reality it`s been two weeks of no actual classes. I have a relatively slack semester except for chemistry 30 but my day starts out as AP English, Christian Ethics, SPARE, Chemistry, SPARE. I have a lot of time to myself, maybe I should join a gym or something but I doubt I will. That's all for now folks!

Someone who fascinates me: Day 25

Oprah.. Jk
Honestly though I don't have anyone that really fascinates me.