When Is It Time?

How does a person know how much time is needed after a break up to feel better? There should be a set time and day where automatically the person feels better and doesnt cry or think about it anymore. I wanna stop feeling like crap, I wanna stop thinking about him, I wanna move on, I wanna be happy, and most importantly I don't want him to walk out of my life forever. After two years with him and now nothing is left. He is literally walking straight out of my life never to be seen or heard from again, after graduation he goes to paris for a month and then goes to North Dakota for school. How can I just let him go after two years of great memories of seeing eachother everyday to never seeing him again. It's not fair and I hate it. I'm sure it will make moving on easier but I still can't believe this is how it all ended. It's been a month and some since we broke up and it still hurts like I know it would but my best friend seems to think I should be done hurting. I can't make her understand that it is big deal and that why I wanna know when is it time to feel better? Who decides when? What makes the decision final?  I just want to feel better already so far 2011 is not my year.

Boys

Relationships are such a mess, I've made a fool of myself and I don't ever want to hurt like this again.

Jason Alexander Birthday Wish

Jason Alexander
Y U NO WISH ME HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY?

All I send you is love asking for birthday wishes, I know you're a very busy man but I would give anything to meet you. I guess I'll just have to ask again next year in the meantime I'll watch some Seinfeld.



HE ACTUALLY REPLIED TO MY Y U NO TWEET,  I WOKE UP THIS MORNING TO THIS:

even though it wasn't the reply I was hoping for, the point is he wished me a happy birthday!!!!!

Teachers Strike

Here in Saskatchewan all the teachers are striking for more money. So far we've missed 3 days of school because the teachers walked out and starting Monday there is no more extra curricular. That means no track, no extra help at lunch, no canteen, no choir, NOTHING.

 Theres so many rumors going around about the strike like "if we miss anymore days we have to come back in the summer" "grad is cancelled" oh and my personal favorite "we might not have final exams and just be finished with the grades we have now". I honestly don't know whats true anymore but I'll tell you this if grad is cancelled I'll be very disappointed. I mean I've spent $400 on my grad dress and my parents have spent at least $2500 on tickets. And theres no way the teachers are going to not finish teaching the curriculum. They have to actually because there are so many concepts and things that need to be taught in a course so a student can move on.

The real shame isn't high school, it's the young elementary kids that are missing out. It's their education that is really going to be damaged by the strike if it continues. I wish the government would give the teachers their wage increase but they spent countless hours doing their very best to teach everyone's children. Not everyone has the skill to teach and have patience. For those who do its not fair for them not to get what they deserve. I hope that they come to terms in which the teachers and the government are both satsified because I'm fed up with the strike and everything that is coming with it. But what do I know, I'm only an 18 year old girl trying to graduate.

I Survived

I did survive my grandmothers visit mostly because I wasn't at home to be tortued. Oh and I survived the rapture everyone was talking about. Never saw that coming..

May Long

Thank god May long weekend is finally here. And even though my evil grandmother is coming, I am greatly looking forward to spending time with my friends.

She'll Be Coming Around The Mountains

My Dad's mom is coming to visit my family this May long weekend. Most people would be happy to see thir grandmother but not me. She is far from a grandma to me, even though technically speaking she is family and is my grandma I don't see her that way.

To me a real grandma is someone who has pictures of you from when you were tiny up on the walls, is always there for you, prays for you when you're upset and is a general joy to be around (and sometimes makes your favirite dessert before you come over). This is exactly how my Mom's mom is. I love her so much and I wish I could spend more time with her.

Back onto the topic of the wicked witch of the west (She lives in BC, thats why she is the witch of the west). My "grandma" has always compared me to my half cousin Brianna. Brianna lives in a small town and has always gotten the love from them. I remember when I told my grandma I was working at Robins Donuts, she told me that Brianna worked at Tim Hortons. Oh and when she called on Christmas she asked what day my graduation was on, not because she was interested in coming but because she was worried that my graduation and Brianna's graduation were going to be on the same day. Obviously that would mean if they were (which they aren't) She would go to Brianna's not mine.

This lovely "grandma" that I have described will be spending the WHOLE May long with us. While my Dad is gone to Winnipeg to help out my uncle. That means quality (horrible) time with "grandma". Sometimes I feel like she tries to make up for how shes treated me but I think that there is no changing how I feel. I mean if she wanted a realtionship with me where was she 18 years ago? I'll keep you updated on the horrible ness of her being her.

Official Class Schedule

18th Birthday

This was probably one of the best birthdays I've had in a very long time. I can't actually remember the last time where I've even had a day this great (well maybe the day I found out I got front row Katy Perry tickets- 63 days away!)

But I bought my first lottery tickets and that was very cool. I felt so grown up even though after I was done I gushed about it like a little girl. Brittany, Bret and I went to Denny's after school because if it's your birthday you get a free meal .It just so happens that I have two friends with the same birthday but only Bret could come. That was a good grub even though we nearly died on the way back home because Brittany said "Use him as a meat shield!" while I was in a double turning lane which was enough to convince me to turn when I shouldn't of. After the near death experience I went home and my Parents ordered my favorite pizza (Dominos) and my Mom got me a Toy Story cake.

I watched "The Emperor's New Groove" while waiting for Nick to bring me my present. You'll never guess what it is, nor will you have the chance. My Parents and him got together to get me a 32" TV as a birthday/grad present. I'm very lucky and I'm very happy that I have people in my life who I can celebrate my special day with. This without a doubt has been my BEST birthday ever.

Happy Bday Me

It's my 18th birthday today and I'm up blogging this because I'm too excited to sleep. Perhaps I'll post a picture of my birthday cake later in the day.

Coming Together

Finally stating to feel like myself again, sometimes I wake up feeling happy. Tomorrow is my 18th birthday and I'm looking forward to it. I mean who doesn't want to be able to buy lottery tickets and get free meals at Denny's. And I recieved a notice in the mail saying I have to go and sign for a letter at the post office tomorrow, so I'm really hoping that it could be a scholarship I applied for. Which would be amazing to win a scholarship on my birthday!

I also went to University of Regina today to pick my classes and I'm really looking forward to starting in the fall.
It looks something like this: Sociology 100, Bio 100, Math 104, English 100 and Psyc 210.

Oh and I've had 3 job interviews in the past week and got hired at 2 so now I just have to chose what I want.
It looks like my life is starting to come together even though for the longest time I thought it wouldn't.

Employed!

After job searching for over 2 months now I can finally say I'm employed and recieving shifts. My best friend Amanda got me a job at Safeway today in less than an hour without an interview and I start tomorrow (today)

It's really nothing to brag about but I'm glad to know I finally have some income. Now to make the awkward phone call to the call center that wanted me to start Thursday.

Sprinkles

1000th View

My next page view is my 1000th!
Keep lurking people!

Not Actual Size

Thanks I thought that was the actual size of the hot dog and I wasn't sure how many people I would need to come over and help.

SERIOUSLY! ANY IDIOT COULD TELL YOU ITS NOT THE ACTUAL SIZE

Star Wars Day

I'm not a big Star Wars fan, I like the movies but they are not my favorite. One of my best friends is a huge fan though, she even got R2D2 tattooed on her leg. Some people say it's stupid but it just shows how passionate she is about something she loves.

Now that's not really the point here, I'm just trying to say it seems like all the closet fans come out today to celebrate but then that makes me think. If you're a closest fan are you really a fan at all. And really the only reason I think it's Star Wars Day is because it's May 4th as in May the fourth (force) be with you. There could be other reasons too but like I said I'm no crazy fan.

Everyone is back!

MY FRIENDS ARE HOME <3
I'VE MISSED THEM SO MUCH